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School Is Not For Me
School is not for me. I have been going to school my entire life, and there has not been one day where I woke up and was excited for the next 6 hours, trapped in a classroom, forcing myself to pay attention to a boring lecture that I wont remember after I burst out of those doors and head home.
That’s the problem with our generation however. We have it too good. We take everything for granted. But it isn’t our faults. Life was handed to us like that. For some, it is obviously harder than for others, but life is life at the end of the day. Everyone has his or her own beautiful, twisted, struggle.
But I digress.
Sitting in a lecture hall has never been more cup of tea. I absolutely loathe the idea of sitting and forcing myself to understand the complex concepts of what a professor is regurgitating to me.
I much rather be outside, in the field, get my ass kicked, get up, and learn from what just happened. Nothing will ever beat experience. No textbook will ever give me experience. No classroom will ever give me a hard slap in my face, and show me a reality that I need to see.
Classrooms are there to protect you. They are made for you to be sheltered, groomed softly, and ignore the reality that is out there waiting for you. It will devour you, and then shit you out. Why? Because we have grown up in a world where we were protected since birth, and then thrown to the wolves once we’ve reached a certain curriculum. That is a cruel death isn’t it?
They don’t teach you how to buy a house in school, how to buy a car, how to finance, how to get married, or choose a spouse. They don’t teach you anything that you NEED to know. They teach you what they believe you need to know. I am going to turn 21 this year, and I have no clue as to how to purchase an apartment, or buy a car. I refuse to stay within the confines of my parent’s home for more than another year or two. But I will have to struggle as we all do. Why? Because no one taught us how to live after we break free of the comfy confines of school.
I very well understand the importance of education and our school systems all too well. We need degrees to get anywhere these days. Just another way the “man” is trying to influence us to go to school. I understand that without any degree, the chances of you finding a stable career path, is very slim. I’ve worked retail for 2 years, WORST SHIT EVER. I don’t want to do that for the rest of my life, and I understand I need a diploma in order to achieve something higher. I understand in order to run; you must first learn how to crawl. In order to go out into the world, you must first educate yourself.
But, why don’t they educate us on the things we need to know? I have no issue with school; I have an issue with the curriculum. Grab my attention, put it in a chokehold, and force me to understand something of important value. Do not force me to learn about the Pythagorean theorem. Unless, of course I need to learn that for my career path I have selected.
School is not for me. At least, the way it’s set-up right now.
Happy Birthday My Love
Your soul is what captivated me. It took me to a place I've never been before. A euphoric feeling lingers throughout my body at the thought, sight and feel of you.
Your happiness lights my life up brighter then all the stars in the world combined. You complete me, like the ying & yang, you balance me out. You keep me sane.
Whenever I need somebody I know just who to look for. You make me feel like my problems are worth talking about, that nothing is too big or small, and you tell me like it is. I thank God for blessing me with such a beautiful pure person to be in my life and nevertheless be mine. I'm so grateful for you.
I never had anybody like you come into my life and now that you're here, I never want you to go. I want to know everything about you that you're willing to tell me, and things you wouldn't tell anyone else... ill never judge you. Im always here. Ill be here when you feel like nobody is, because that's what you've done for me.
I promise I'll always make you feel special and remind you why you chose me. I was lucky....
You're my everything baby. I love you. everyday you give me a reason to love you more than the day before. You're simply amazing and I adore you.
I make these mistakes because I never had someone to teach me; pay attention, because these mistakes will be you’re lessons. Learn from me my youth.
Being an older brother is possibly one of the most vital roles in someone’s life. Having the ability, the power, to alter, change, and shape a young person’s life is beyond any other responsibility. It is a curse and blessing, a burden and a duty. Make use of your role to raise the future generation as you see fit, it all starts with one.
I want to push him, pull him, and make him stronger, faster, explosive, in everything he does. Take his time, be patient, control his emotions, and focus on whatever task he has set forth. I want him to become nothing short of great, I can see it in him, that bright flame we each carry as children still lingers within him. It needs to be fed, it needs to burn strong, it needs to engulf this world…he needs to be better than me, more than anything.
I often find myself wanting more. Wanting to change what I have in order to gain the maximum for my time and patience. As often as I want these things, I find myself ill prepared, or unworthy of such a huge task. To change the world, is something I cannot accomplish in this lifetime; however, I understand my role as an older sibling very well. I understand what it means to be the bigger brother, to carry the burden of establishing my younger sibling to grow, expand, and live the life I cannot as my parents wanted for me.
They say you cannot make the same mistake twice, once is a mistake, and twice is a choice. We make mistakes, not because we are incompetent, but because we don’t know any better. I made each mistake in life because I knew nothing better, it was trial and error for me, I had very little resources to learn from. My younger brother is much more fortunate, he has an unlimited resource in me.
He will succeed, he will become everything I am not, and maybe one day, sometime in life, he will find a way to change this world.
“I’m not saying I’m gonna change the world, but I guarantee that I will spark the brain that will change the world,” Tupac Shakur.
An Older Brother's Burden
Why do we date? Because I Love You Damnit..
Why do young people get into relationships? Why don’t we just stay single, enjoy our youth, and raise hell whenever we feel the need to? Why do a majority of us young folk feel the desire to entertain a mate with intimacy and passion? I’ll tell you why.
When you strip a human down to their bare minimum, what are we really? Beautiful, magnificent, reproductive creatures, who want nothing more than to do what we were made to do, procreate. In order to do that, we must find a suitable mate. A man needs a woman, and a woman needs a man. This is nature, this is how it works. I am not anti-gay or anything like that, please don’t misunderstand. But, humans were made to create.
People love options if nothing else. People need to have what they want. This is why we date, this is why we “play the field”. It has nothing to do with observing our parents or peers and their relationships. It is in our genetics to want to mate, to want to create a life with another being. People need to find that “perfect” or seemingly perfect individual they can live with and live for.
It is extremely difficult to marry the first person you see, and expect to accept that person’s imperfections that make them perfect in another’s eyes. Dating gives us the opportunity to discover what we are and aren’t looking for. Everyone brings something different to the table.
Of course, we develop feelings, and attach ourselves to each individual as they come and go, but that’s just it, people come and go. How many people can say they’ve married the first person they ever dated? Now how many people can say they’ve learned much about themselves and the people around them from their partner’s in the past, and present that allow them to know exactly what they want for their future?
Life is beautiful when you have the experience and knowledge to make it exactly how you want it. Yes, you have to take the good with the bad, but that is a given. For instance, my girlfriend’s farts can set fire to the rain. Do I hate it? No. Do I enjoy it? No, not at all. But it’s something I accept. Why? Because dying in her farts is a small trade off for feeling alive when she’s around.
Many of our parents found what made them happy, took it, ran with it, and never looked back.
I am not the most experienced, but I understand what makes me happy today because I understood what didn’t in the past. I cant speak for tomorrow, but I do understand that I will learn something today, that I can use tomorrow because of this relationship, because of every relationship.